[Mother Nuru.]

My only main concern is that you said you were not coming back and that you have basically hated having the admin rank on murder. Even when you have been doing things the past few weeks, you have gotten annoyed at points when people have called you admin or "admin not admin".

I guess my main concern is, why the change of heart? Going from being vehemently against it to this is a complete turnover. I just want to make sure YOU actually want this before you fully commit. The reason for this question is that if it is a "feel like you need to" answer in any way, I am going to -1 you because you will keep on doing the "feel like you need to" act until you are almost mentally stretched to your limit if not beyond that.

This is not to say that I am not for a responsible individual to finally be in charge of murder but I would rather have no one compared to someone that is going to crash and burn, again.

So the thing on admin not admin was due to the reason i was working on murder. Since the babies birth, post partum depression has kicked my ass heavily. Coming on and doing things and fixing them was what was keeping it simmered and at the time I just wanted to fix things without being called admin. I had this talk with travis and star and they can attest to this. I explained it a lot better there. But essentially at that time, it was because it was making me feel like shit being called admin just for wanting to do things to keep myself busy and my mind not wander.

It's not a I need to thing. It might come off that way with what I just said, but if you need more proof on that, you can ask those in murder that's been dealing with me. If I have time and want to do something, I've been getting on and doing it. If I don't, I ignore it all or tell them no, I am not dealing with it today. I want to believe I've finally found the balance between doing stuff that needs fixed, and taking breaks at the same time. The baby helps me with that as well. She forces those breaks as well but you know that bc she screams at us in vc's LMAO.

As for the WHY. FOR SOME REASON I FOUND LOVE FOR THIS DISASTER ZONE AGAIN KMS.

Thank you for your comment, and I appreciate and love you. I know this all came from a place of not only caring about staff but a friend as well.

but also u suck and so does foxka you shit

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Only if you promise not to overwork yourself and care for your family first before good! Also stop by ttt more often ;)

ttt sucks bc ur there now hell no

jk i will and ofc the baby always comes first its just me and her here so nobody can help LMAO if somethings going on with her i ditch what im doing and go tend to her