[Zom13AE]

I am neutral. 

The main reasons being is that there hasn't been anything that say "OH YEAH! FINALLY!!" type thing for me when it comes to your performance but the things that really made me go meh about this is this:
"But in all seriousness; I want to continue to help everyone out. I know I can do this as a Tmod, I know it's more responsibility and I completely understand and recognize this. This will be my last app, as well, I don't think I'll be wanting another position after tmod (If I get promoted). " Now I realize that you are being honest which I respect the honesty, there's just part of me that doesn't feel like you should be promoted because from a long term perspective this just seems almost lazy. AGAIN, this is just my observation that doesn't mean it's a fact or anything so nobody get all wound up... 

I respect your opinion but I'm not sure how this is preserved as lazy. I took my time with this and was very honest about it. I even reached out to a few peers to get their opinion before moving forward with the application. Having dyslexia can sometimes make me overprocess what I'm trying to say; so I've learned to keep things simple but try to portray importance in my responses.

I will try to explain my perspective better. You started by saying "I want to continue to help everyone out." but then you say almost directly after "This will be my last app, as well, I don't think I'll be wanting another position after tmod (if I get promoted)". 

Though this isn't a job but more of a side hobby I will give the perspective that I have as someone who's been part of hiring/analyzing people. 
Think for a second if you were an employer of sorts, do you want someone who is going to strive to get better/advance in life or someone who is going to just do what they do and coast along?

From what you said it made it seem like you're just going to coast along, not really make waves just kind of be there. As you move up in the staff positions you make waves, you make friends, you make enemies, due to experience and perspective you help make changes. 

What I'm saying is that from what you've said, it would seem like you're not willing to make the waves.

I hope this created more clarity than confusion and was educational as my perspective. This isn't an attack but an attempt to show you how I view some things. 

I completely understand this. As you said this is a hobby, not a job. While I am ready to make friends, enemies, and what waves I can I know my limits as a person. I still need energy for myself, my family, and my personal life in general. This wasn't an attempt to be lazy but to apply to do more while still inside my comfort zone. 

My capabilities may expand or decrease in the future, who knows, but currently, this has no bearing on the role that I qualify for and wish to fill.
I do acknowledge how this might have come off as unprofessional; I only wanted to be honest. Thank you again for your input and for clarifying what you meant.

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Honestly, I read this and thought it was a shitpost for the entire time it's been up.

I may not be active in server, but I still see and hear a lot.

Multiple people now have mentioned discussions about my behavior privately without my knowledge. If there have been such serious discussions or if multiple players have reached out to complain I feel as though I should have been invited into this conversation. I cannot correct myself or improve on something if I have no idea that it's an issue in the first place.
It has never been my intention to be unkind or mean to anyone. I am always willing to listen and discuss anything, even my behavior.

And I've got to agree with Voss. Tabbing in and out is fine and all, I had one monitor I get it, but tabbing out and staying out consistently and then saying that you felt comfortable to leave it for donors is what got me.

Donors aren't staff, donors should not be acting on behalf of staff unless SPECIFICALLY told to do so, which I have had to do before for emergency personal calls. But that attitude concerns the absolute SHIT out of me because once we have an expectation for donors to do shit, then we have a whole new level of "donor staff" we have to deal with. Donors have added perks, but are never to be expected to act on behalf of staff. That's my opinion on that matter.

Stepping away for ban requests, I get that too. I used to do that when I first started and guess what? I missed bigger and more important issues and had zero evidence because of that. Do all your ban requests out of game completely. Do them right away or in 3 days, fuck if I care, but if it's something that stresses you out in your personal life? You should be taking a break not a promotion.

This probably sounds super harsh and I don't mean it to be but I'm exhausted.

I wish you the best of luck regardless, but I am with -1

The tabbing and being more present in-game is something I will continue to work on. It's was never my intention to have donors act completely on my behalf but only to be eyes and ears if I am away so I may be updated on what happened.

I wouldn't say that creating ban request stress me out in a personal way but more like a "let's get these baddies asap" kind of way. 
Thank you for this feedback and insight.