10-24-2023, 04:42 AM
I know I am not staff here, nor have I had any important role unless you count donor (Which I don't as I never really used my powers.) But lately, things have just been really hard in my personal life. After I lost my job over 5 months ago I sort of lost myself in the process and I am at a point where I don't feel comfortable and something is wrong.
Wanted to say that over the last 5 or so years I have loved everything about this community. And it hurts to want to leave for a while, but I know its what I need to do. Hell, half the the time I tend to think no one here has ever really liked me anyway and to that I can understand that. I've had a lot of anger issues in the past and I am not exactly a stable and sane person anymore. I never thought I'd make a post like this to begin with but when youve hit rock bottom you tend to not care too much what you say anymore to some extent.
I have had so much personal drama with people and to whoever that may be; I apologize entirely. I don't really know what is wrong with me but I have some serious problems and need professional help.
Mental health is a bitch. Trying to keep your sanity in tact when it is waning is even harder. I probably sound insane even in this post, but I just needed to be honest. I always like to joke around, laugh at everything. But no matter how much you brush it off, you need to tackle your problems head on and not avoid it.
I just hope no one else makes me the same mistakes I have made. If you need help, please talk to someone. Anyone. Don't do what I have done and hold everything in for who knows how long. It will only make things worse.
Apologies if this was too much of rant, but I had too many thoughts on my mind. Could easily type more. To everyone I knew one here, thank you. Thank you for making me happy and allowing me to enjoy myself for a bit. I will appreciate every single one of you. I'll still be around here and there for the time being. Hope this wasn't too much
Wanted to say that over the last 5 or so years I have loved everything about this community. And it hurts to want to leave for a while, but I know its what I need to do. Hell, half the the time I tend to think no one here has ever really liked me anyway and to that I can understand that. I've had a lot of anger issues in the past and I am not exactly a stable and sane person anymore. I never thought I'd make a post like this to begin with but when youve hit rock bottom you tend to not care too much what you say anymore to some extent.
I have had so much personal drama with people and to whoever that may be; I apologize entirely. I don't really know what is wrong with me but I have some serious problems and need professional help.
Mental health is a bitch. Trying to keep your sanity in tact when it is waning is even harder. I probably sound insane even in this post, but I just needed to be honest. I always like to joke around, laugh at everything. But no matter how much you brush it off, you need to tackle your problems head on and not avoid it.
I just hope no one else makes me the same mistakes I have made. If you need help, please talk to someone. Anyone. Don't do what I have done and hold everything in for who knows how long. It will only make things worse.
Apologies if this was too much of rant, but I had too many thoughts on my mind. Could easily type more. To everyone I knew one here, thank you. Thank you for making me happy and allowing me to enjoy myself for a bit. I will appreciate every single one of you. I'll still be around here and there for the time being. Hope this wasn't too much
