[tiefling lesbian]

I wouldn't really see how being "active" would help benefit on taking a lead of a app, ban request, or unban would help since you would want to work as a admin team together on coming together as a major decision for an app or possibly look at the urgent ban's/unbans that are more urgent than others together to get different perspectives and opinions.
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How I see it is taking a community manager role for admin to be able to come to conclusions faster wouldn't result in anything, taking into the factors of having the other admins make a vote for these discussions.

It's much easier/more efficient to have someone dedicated to taking initiative on matters and gathering input from the others than have people separately picking things up when they're able in between doing other things.

The other point was needing Chibill or Bryan to get on to setup everything. I believe that you could do this on your own without needing the help of them, granted you would need to learn how to do it, but Chibill already does testing on his private server that he has mentioned to test new stuff for the server. It's only a matter of trying to be able to learn and figure out how to test it. I believe you can do this already as a Mod, given that Chibill has done this even before applying for Admin. It would be serviceable considering you wouldn't need other admins to help setup anything or be able to test stuff if you were to have your own private testing server.

I have gotten somewhat more involved in the development side of things since making this application, and fortunately chibill/bryan (I forget which) found a useful addon that lets me test some weapon changes directly on the test server.

However, I find the conversation surrounding the development aspect to be somewhat frustrating, as there seem to be two contradictory sentiments being presented simultaneously. On one hand, development is being treated as the primary and most important role of admins (which I disagree with), and you have to be a developer to be an admin. On the other hand, development can be done without being admin, and thus interest in development is not a credit toward becoming admin. It sort of feels like either position will be arbitrarily held against me regardless of what I do.

If you don't need to be an admin to be a developer, and community management is not a valuable role in administration, then why do we need admins at all?

with other concerns of being impartial to other individuals. (but what can I say since I've been very active for so little time now)

I'd like to address this directly for once because I feel like I should be able to defend myself, and I want to preface by saying this is more of a general response than directed at you personally.

I'm not really sure where this notion comes from. I have openly warned and banned players that I like, and I've shown lenience, restraint, and patience toward players I do not particularly like or that do not particularly like me, even when other staff have agreed that I would have been in the right to warn them for their behavior or commented that they would have been harsher, and even when those players have directly harassed me. On more than one occasion, I have defended such players against other players and staff members, where a truly biased staff could have easily remained silent.

In no way do I expect any sort of gratitude or to instantly change the minds of anyone who may not like me, but it's frustrating to be accused of bias based on the word of less than impartial sources and secondhand gossip, in spite of what I feel is clear effort toward the opposite. All I ask is that people form their own opinions based on firsthand experiences with me, and to back up any accusations with some sort of supporting evidence.