[PandaInPants]

after reading recent comments, imma just air my thoughts out. panda, i think you’re more than capable to staff, you’ve got the knowledge and the skills to be able to staff, no doubt about it. server culture is definitely still something that needs to be worked on, which i’m sure at least most people agree with. the only thing that i find really iffy is the approach of the concerns or criticisms made. i’ll reiterate what i said in the staff server with my concerns just to be as transparent as possible and be genuine with my responses. 

How I view it is that they are minor criticisms/concerns that I believe are valid. Others have gotten similar situations where a minor criticism/concern is brought up and have addressed it, stating to either do better or give an explanation/give an apology for their actions. It’s not to say you gotta say sorry to the individual if you don’t want to, but it makes it look like you try to deflect the criticism or take it as another way, instead of a minor issue just to fix for the time being. At least that’s how I see it. You can be defensive and give your view on it, that’s fine, but it seems like you don’t try to address it by stating you’ll fix the issue of being less aggressive in your responses. I trust you to do all the staff stuff since it’s easy, but just decisive if you’d be able to take a step back and really look into the issues and take them head first without approaching it in a way that makes it view it as a minor attack or nitpick. just my two cents.

So, just to clarify my position on calling the guy a neanderthal with lots of other descriptors is that yes I was rude and an ass. I cannot apologize for the action as that would be dishonest but I take responsibility for being an asshole. There are a few cases including my behavior in april where I have been more aggressive or rude towards community members and I could very much have gone about my comments in a much better way, but I did not. That is on me and that is the choice I made instead of being kinder and taking more time to be elaborate and write things out professionally. I try to be a more kind person and elaborate things as much as I can, but there will be and have been times where I have given up on taking the time to type out a genuine response because many times those get treated the same as quickly calling someone a neanderthal half the time anyway. The reason I have been upset about it being the focus is because I felt I had explained it to the best of my ability at the time, the response may have been split up because so many people asked about it and i got more frustrated. Im not meaning to deflect or whine about "well john does worse than me so i should be forgiven" i dont think i should be forgiven or overlooked it just felt disingenuous as an argument when I would think about common actions in the community compared to my own actions. I wanted to move on to a general issues and away from this specific nitpick, which i probably should have just thought of doing myself and used the nitpick to bring up the general issue of timed id been aggressive.