[Pbever]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a hard time. As @Foxka said, the best way is to fix what your problem is. Finding out what exactly that problem is, however, is another story. I think it's best to either just sit down or go for a jog or a walk, and while doing so think about past experiences. What issues have you faced? What could you have done better? How can you learn from this?

This process is how I deal with my own issues. It can be hard to think about things like this, but whatever short term pain it caused me, the long-term self-improvement that resulted from it helped my happiness immensely. I've been in a few dark places myself, especially during my middle school years, but ultimately I crawled out of it as a better person. No matter what issues you're facing, despite what you may think, you're not alone. You certainly have more friends than you think.

I understand you're just doing the best you can, and you're not even doing a bad job, but there are always things we can do to improve ourselves. I'm sure some of the more experienced admins or mods would be willing to offer some advice, if you want it.