[Daggergrace]

don't fake happiness, fix what the problem is and work on improving yourself.

There is no fixing it as far as I know, there is nothing that I can do right now, I've come up with thousands of reasons of why I am who I am, and I can't conclude any of them.

I am even on medication for this sort of emotional issue, since I am now seeing a psychiatrist…can't remember the name of the drug but it starts with an r and helps with the aid about psychosis..?

The main issue I feel, is that I can't bring myself to care about anything regarding myself, but for others I fake it.

Also I do feel like the admins of the server, mainly queef and Dakody, do nothing to help anyone, in fact Dakody targeted me a few days ago, he let Minime RDM me, claiming that mini had a free RDM pass as long as it was me. He constantly kept freezing me in place on the map, he took my ranked away completely even after I asked him nicely to stop.

Queef can't even bother to say, "stop shitposting", on the thread about the ONE shitpost I did in over 8 months. They all got triggered over it, and it really isn't that big of a deal. And that's what I hate, I respect the lower people more, because most of the admins, aside from scoovie who has actually talked with me about improving in a kind manner, are, in my opinion, are assholes.