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"serious thread"

Okay, sure, if you insist. I think you're a manchild who is only apologizing here because it's what people want you to do. Last time you didn't breathe a word of apology despite fully knowing how you'd harassed Tief, because it didn't cross your mind until being called out on it. Now suddenly you're on your knees because just asking to be unbanned didn't work before. You've made it clear your views haven't changed on anything, and that you'll just avoid saying bad things because it makes people feel bad. This is fine if you're calling someone dumb schoolyard names, not harassing someone with pointed slurs. That shows you're just as shitty, but are going to hide it better because you know people will call you out on your shit. Your excuses of addiction and loss don't just make you a bigot while you're drunk, that's there when you're sober too, just behind your ability to self-correct for the people you're around, which there's little reason to think that's accurate. 

I'm glad you're taking responsibility for racism though