[chibill]

I debated whether or not I should post this, slept on it, and decided that the community could use some transparency right now. It's absolutely not my intention and never has been my intention to get anyone into trouble, cause drama, or drag out any drama unnecessarily. I just feel like I owe it to Jack to clarify some details about the situation.

After sharing screenshots in a private discord, I was approached by an admin in DMs asking to resend the screenshots there and asking if they could share the screenshots in admin chat. I said sure, shared the screenshots again and said all of the following- "i don't want them publicly posted', "like i feel bad using those against him cause as u can see i respond to uncomfortable situations with 'lol' rather than 'please stop making me uncomfortable' lmfao so i feel like i cant really hold it against him too much but yeah", "he apologized for everything", "i don't really care we're cool' (referring to Jack and I).

Now, logically I should have known that sharing them with the admins meant something bad would come of it, but I was genuinely just trying to be helpful and didn't really think twice to consider what the consequences might be or what they would be used for. Had I been told that they would be used as evidence for a ban on Jack, I would have absolutely specifically stated that I did not want that and those were not my intentions when sharing the screenshots. I had no idea Jack was 'under investigation' or anything of the sort. Do I feel like the admin should have been more forthcoming about what they were being used for? Maybe, but the blame is not entirely on them, because had I thought twice about the situation I would have connected the dots.

I absolutely admit my fault here in certain aspects of the situation. I should have never shared the screenshots to the discord in the first place, my intentions when doing so weren't ever to get Jack in trouble, my intentions were purely just an immature 'look at this awkward interaction haha' and I never ever should have shared them for a laugh at his expense. I deeply regret it and recognize how shitty it was of me, and have absolutely learned my lesson.

An important takeaway here for me (and everyone I believe) is that context is soo important in situations like these. While the screenshots themselves may have not looked great, they did not include the context of the situation, which was that in a stupid effort to avoid awkwardness, I failed to ever let him know that I was uncomfortable with some of the things he said. There was never a set boundary that was crossed, he never said anything with malicious intent, and I now know that if I had ever mentioned I was uncomfortable he would have stopped that line of conversation immediately. Since all of this has went down I have actively been making an effort to 1 treat everyone the way I would like to be treated and 2 be honest with people about how I feel rather than laughing things off just to avoid an awkward conversation.

All in all I feel really terrible about this whole thing. I have apologized to Jack directly but felt I owed it to him to try to publicly shed some light on the situation that I had a hand in causing. So Jack, again, I am sooo beyond sorry for how I behaved and I am so grateful you could forgive me and that we are friends!

Now, as for the 'victim' that falsified evidence/lied to the admins and others, I am of the opinion they should receive at least the same punishment that Jack received, if not harsher. As for the admins who handled this situation back in April, I do have sympathy for them as it was definitely a tricky situation and I myself right now can't say how I would've handled it, but regardless at the end of the day it was handled incorrectly and all I'm going to say about that is I think an apology would go a long way. 

That's all I really have to say right now but I'm happy to answer any questions here or in discord DMs!

I would like to say that the messages after you sent the full versions of the small snipped messages were not shared with the whole admin team, so we only saw you giving the okay to for them to be given to the admin team and when I requested the admin get  the full screenshot versions of small single message snippets if possible, the convo after the full versions was not sent. (I have since be sent that by a 3rd party that brought it up to me.)  So IMO you should not feel bad about this, because your full side was not displayed to everyone else making decisions.