[chapman]

The Damien Cycle:

This trend of suddenly knowing my feelings while also not interacting with me is a little nuts to me btw, I'm thankful for the input but generally how am I going to improve if someone tells me exactly what they think I am feeling/doing without having a direct interaction with me in game or having a longish conversation with me. I'm not singling this reply out btw I was writing this originally for K Stone's post.

If your whole basis of -1ing me is because of me having a "Cycle" or history of resigning I am not gonna reply with my same answer to that over and over again. It's a little silly to me because I don't think it matters all that much if the staff member wants to come back and is also willing to repeat the process of coming back through applications. IMO it's much better than going inactive when you don't want to staff but again the community has decided that they would rather me go inactive if I was made staff again so if I am made staff I will just do that instead of resigning if I feel like I don't want to staff/be staff for the community.

I didn't really burn any bridges until the April resignation but I'll own up to that, I'm not actively holding any grudges/gripes against anyone and if anyone feels like I need to apologize to them because of what happened/what I said I'm willing to if you wanna reach out.

My "Lurking" on the fourms is me just trying to stay active within the community and contribute to discourse while also seeing what's happening (Not in a looking to the see the drama way but like I just wanna know what's going on in the community so I can contribute kinda way).

I don't want to derail this thread, so I'll make this my last comment on here:

Your first point: I would agree with you that it would be wild to try and act "I know" your feelings after not interacting with you for a very long time. However, I am not talking about your feelings; I am talking about a pattern of behaviors that I have observed over a nearly 5-year period of being in this community and knowing you through your actions. It would be insane for me to assume how you felt.

Your second point: You have a point, but that argument becomes redundant after... whatever round of trusted application/staff run this is. Similarly to the last application you did back in July 2024, I, alongside several others, are just quite tired of seeing you do this same arduous cycle. It is frustrating to observe you make what those of us who "don't support" the app watch you make the same mistake over, and over, and over again. Do you really feel like it's worth it? Or are you simply applying because your friends, Derp and Rand, did? I feel like even this app was you being pressured/influenced by your friends doing the same thing honestly.

Your third point: Fair point. I honestly don't try to remember much, and although I could potentially try to go digging and find examples, I really don't think it's appropriate or worth it trying to find it all. We'll just say I'm wrong and move on.


Fourth point: Yeah, that's fair; saying you lurk as part of your cycle was a bit rude on my part, so I'll rescind that comment.


As long as you understand that these are not personal attacks on you, I am totally fine if you and I disagree on these stances because at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter. I'm just simply voicing my opinion.

I will say that while I was looking back at older complaints that I had against you on WAY older applications, you have 100% gotten better at handling criticism compared to how you used to react to it, so I appreciate you demonstrating growth in that. I'm sure that if it's accepted, you'd probably do a good job because you know how to do it.