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The last few months as mentioned in my TMod app have been the worst I've ever had. From my dad possibly having fatal problems that the doctors don't know what's going on, to things mentally and physically with me. I am not in a good place in my mind at all. This is not a resignation, this is a I don't know what to do. I love this community as its been the best that I've ever been apart of. Staffing on TTT is one of the best gaming experiences I have ever had. I'm still going to play, but I want you all to know that I am not in a good spot right now with myself. I'm unhappy with many things in my life that I cannot control, but I guess everything happens for a reason. Another thing to bring up is the backlash I have received for smoking weed.. I literally do that to mask the depression that I have. As sad as it is to admit it is my only escape. I have a therapist, but in reality I don't think it is helping anymore. Another thing I received backlash for and still hurts me is the fact that my TMod app got denied. I know I needed to improve, but people didn't have to attack me the way that they did. I love you all thank you for everything you have done for me. I'm so sorry, I'm balling my eyes out as I'm typing this.