[TheUltraFish]

I am going to lead my thoughts here since it is connected to what was posted but does not qualify for the staff abuse report. This would kind of tie in with the Admin section there Matt. I do like this general setup. It is title rant so I will do some of that as well.

I personally think that the admin rank is the worst rank in this community. You can do things, but you cannot do anything truly useful other than saying yes and no with additional banning privileges. Everybody second guesses your actions and the one time you say something everybody, or in most cases a certain amount of people, does not like. You are all of a sudden the worst staff in existence and it takes a long time, if ever, to recover from it. I have people that go around and say I am not trustworthy. Do I know why? No. Do they tell me? No. It is a vicious cycle. The most things I have noticed I get to say, is no. Does not matter for what. Applications? Generally no. New maps? No. New weapons? No. Something to add some entertainment to the server? No. So on and so forth. Most of the time, it is not me or Nuru actually saying no ourselves but Dink saying no. (This is no way is to specifically target Dink some of things are understandable). However since we are the ones that said "No" we are held to it.

For example, people want new maps. I understand this and I really want this as well. It keeps getting talked about and we have to say no every time because the map vote system is messed up and/or broken. It has been like this for MONTHS with no progress other than saying we are trying. I cannot help here, I do not know basically any Gmod coding so it mainly looks like gibberish to me. No progress has been made and so we are stuck with the same maps showing up repeatedly until another map we have decides to join the map vote and all that truly ends up happening is that the maps get overplayed which does not help with staff activity. I actually got tired with the drama and repeated maps of the server and took a month off announcing it to the ph staff team before departing and not getting on the server. I kept my activity on the forums and discord pretty relative but not getting involved in major topics unless necessary.


I do not really know why I have the admin rank sometimes. Yes I am active but I get little recognition of it by Dink. It has also gotten to the point on many occasions that if we need something done or a person's rank updated or removed (nearly anything general now that I think about it). I have to contact Nuru to contact Dink because the majority of the time I get ignored. If he does update the rank, I do not find out about it until I see it in server or if another staff person tells me. There is a very limited amount of healthy communication. Dink will ask Nuru and I to do things and we'll do them. I never hear back. From gathering evidence or group opinion of a player in question to major decisions.

I realize these issues that have blown up the forums is mainly directed at the TTT side of things. I do not fully understand all the problems going on in TTT, I do not pretend to know when an in server issue comes up. I am not saying this as an excuse for the TTT admins but things are, from the look of things, not getting fixed on TTT (same as PH in some cases) a majority of the time, with a hefty amount of toxicity thrown in because that makes everything better. So everyday they have to look at a mess that none of them can fix and that gets ignored by those who can do something about it. This is draining and gets old really quick. There is not much worse feeling than getting partially to fully hated on for something out of your control. When the issues are not addressed or fixed in any way, they get old really fast and since you cannot do anything about it, you do not want to deal with the backlash that comes along with it. I understand that everybody has lives but the trend across Dink's is that only a couple of the admins actually try to stay active. This can be frustrating to those who need them for various issues but pile those on top of the things that they have to try and fix and are just hit with a brick wall with, and it easily becomes overwhelming.

 The admins do talk to each other on big things like community issues or items that could be applied to both servers either protocol on forums/discord or the server itself. We do what we can but many things we cannot address on our own that the community wants because we simply do not have access to those items or we are so drained from all the time of nothing getting worked on, which causes things to get worse, which makes things more toxic than what they are. I do not know what led to the denial of porky's staff application as that is for the TTT staff to figure out.

I am sorry for the way things are but I am not surprised that they have gotten to this point after continued lack of progression on the server side of things with most issues that admins can do little about. This just piles up on everything else and makes the entire structure worse. Something has got the change before we get back to the point of no return but for that change possibly happening, I just do not see it at this juncture sadly.