02-04-2020, 12:33 AM
Okay now that I'm not busy just to address things on my own end.
The increase of toxicity (lack of better terms here) has been very brutal from regulars on top of the usual random trolls.
Specifically to @Laced Xanax - I will admit I was part of the problem with that. To be honest I wasn't sure why you wanted to come back, but it didn't bring much good with it from both of our ends. I was way too lenient because of bias. I thought you were just acting out because your feelings towards this server after your unban appeal from the community ban had taken place. I felt bad even though I was not involved, and that was what was wrong. Not that I could catch everything every time I was on.
I myself am finding the hypocrisy though in some individuals though when they want to point out bias, when I myself have seen the same throughout my duration in this community. Not really the point though, I'm just going to lay out my faults. Pointing fingers really doesn't matter as long as you're aware of the situation, and can see improvement can be made.
Coming back yesterday though it was clear from the start that things were still the same, and I was confused myself. I found myself questioning if certain rules were reverted back, and soon after had to scroll through much of staff chat to see that those rules stayed in place. With the staff that I was on with, we started to crack down. Letting the others know that for example those saying specific words that weren't allowed should be swiftly banned if it continued any more. It amazes me as well that it took this long. I was gone for what, a month and a half? Things were the same if not worse.
This shit has been really taxing. Sorry for being part of the problem, but I hope I'm not the only one that realizes they are. At this point I can only grow from here.
The increase of toxicity (lack of better terms here) has been very brutal from regulars on top of the usual random trolls.
Specifically to @Laced Xanax - I will admit I was part of the problem with that. To be honest I wasn't sure why you wanted to come back, but it didn't bring much good with it from both of our ends. I was way too lenient because of bias. I thought you were just acting out because your feelings towards this server after your unban appeal from the community ban had taken place. I felt bad even though I was not involved, and that was what was wrong. Not that I could catch everything every time I was on.
I myself am finding the hypocrisy though in some individuals though when they want to point out bias, when I myself have seen the same throughout my duration in this community. Not really the point though, I'm just going to lay out my faults. Pointing fingers really doesn't matter as long as you're aware of the situation, and can see improvement can be made.
Coming back yesterday though it was clear from the start that things were still the same, and I was confused myself. I found myself questioning if certain rules were reverted back, and soon after had to scroll through much of staff chat to see that those rules stayed in place. With the staff that I was on with, we started to crack down. Letting the others know that for example those saying specific words that weren't allowed should be swiftly banned if it continued any more. It amazes me as well that it took this long. I was gone for what, a month and a half? Things were the same if not worse.
This shit has been really taxing. Sorry for being part of the problem, but I hope I'm not the only one that realizes they are. At this point I can only grow from here.
