[lonx]

i see how i can come off as power hungry but thats not really it, i see lots of people doing wrong and either noone online to respond to my texts or it being far more urgent, id just imagine it would be fun.. maybe its even a problem that i just want to fit in for once in my life and make a difference that counts and i shouldnt be staff, idk at this point-cocoa

I don't understand? 

i dont either... you guys can just reject it, the only reason i really am being considered is the fact that the server needs staff.

Don't think I am coming across rude or anything, but saying things like this is not a way to receive the staff position you would like in the future. Staff needs a major factor called maturity when needed. By you saying things like this, and basically being passive aggressive, you make it more difficult for you to basically, get promoted to a staff position.
What I am trying to say, is keep a positive attitude, as being passive aggressive will only hurt you, not others. 
Trust me, I know. 
You can't be so negative when staff possibly don't like your application, just brush it off.
It isn't anything against you, it is their personal opinion. 
By staff saying you're not "mature" doesn't mean you aren't mature.
That is simply an opinion. 
If you would like us to reject it, just write canceled or something. 
@Taako the Wizard was indeed correct about PH not having a good amount of staff right now, but that doesn't have an impact wether or not you are getting a staff position or not.
Gambling isn't a proper action to take when getting staff.