[RussEfarmer]

I joined this community almost four years ago now, made some awesome friends, and made even more awesome enemies. Some of the most formative moments in my life took place on this website and these servers, and while I have done some very regrettable things, I couldn't be happier with how my stay here has turned out.

But.. it's time to part. I've got a lot going on in my life, I'm in a rough mental state, and things need to change. I basically haven't been playing on the servers since I returned in January.. I played for maybe a month in January and two weeks in June? But I can't get into this game. I don't find it fun anymore, it feels more like a pass time than anything, and there's too many bad memories I associate with it.

The only thing I've been truly active on are the forums, and I'm sick of it. This is possibly the best community I have ever been a part of on the Internet, full of amazing people, but these forums are killing me. Every ban request, staff application, forum argument about something stupid, unban requests, staff abuse reports.. I see it all happening, and just reading it sends me into a headspace I've been trying to get out of for 9 months. This place just has too much conflict.

I want to stop reading all of this garbage. Pointless arguments and debates about things that barely even matter, people throwing low blows at staff and admins, whatever. I need to stop seeing it, I need to stop thinking about it. It's not healthy.

It's about time I found greener pastures. I've got a new job, just started college, and I've got a new group of folks to be happy with, but I have a very troublesome year ahead. This community will forever be an extremely influential part of my life, but it's been holding me back from who I really want to be, and it's high time I dropped the weight and fixed that. I'll still be in the Discord if anyone wants to contact me, and I might even come back sometime in the long future.

Goodbye, thanks for everything. You are all truly a blessing.