[bob]

OH BOY YES. So I have high depression and high anxiety, which means that I get the great side effect of INSANE PARANOIA and irrational fears. And not like "waaahhh someone doesnt like meeee boooo hooo" paranoia, like nah bish, 'someone' 110% put cameras in my house. So I would have to religiously check all my vents, wall plugs, smoke detectors, EVERYTHING for cameras, even though I know for a FACT that there is nothing there, i just have to check. I cant have someone I don't know touch me, they will stab me with something and give me a disease. I cant have someone sit behind me i dont know in a car, transit, theater, etc., because they will cut my throat. I cant have someone I dont know cut my hair because they will stab me in the eye with scissors, I cant climb chain link fences because the top part will hook under my eyelid. Holy shit I could go on and on and on. Basically i am now super medicated (lmaooo) so its not 'as' bad, but there are still a fuck load of things I cant do because my brain is dumb.

Also, over my 26 years i've found a number of bodys all in different stages, so sometimes smells or sounds really get me.
You're welcome, im insane :)

I literally cannot imagine the struggles of dealing with that, like I feel like I can't say anything about my paranoia now cause that sounds so tough. I do hope its way better for you now!!! P.S. You aren't insane.

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Waffles are better than pancakes @"snicks"

Make me waffles <3

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shiiiit we wanna skip the small talk? ok I used to be a pretty outgoing guy I enjoy meeting new people and I enjoy making friends and I am always afraid of doing something that may hurt them and make them either dislike me or stop talking to me. I hate the idea of being alone I may not be able to make everyone happy but I do my best. I have been hurt so many times by people and it has made me more afraid and im more shy now unless like we know each other well because heartbreak is a bitch and it fucked me up mentally and in all honesty I dont treat my life with much worth and if I didnt have the friends and family in my life who I know who would miss me dearly I wouldnt be here. But things are looking up guys :D

Screw the people who did you dirty. Embrace the heartbreak and learn how to tell who's worth it or not, and definitely take care of yourself/treat your own life with worth because it is 101% worth it (take a shot for everytime I put worth in this sentence). I truly hope things are looking up for you Jack. And don't worry about tryna make people happy, just make sure you are.